An Epiphany

Ever feel like the universe is trying to tell you something?  Sometimes, it may be something small.  Like the time I walked by Will's room before he was born and saw a perfect cross on the floor.  It was created by sunlight gently streaming through his window panes.  I wanted to take a picture of the cross so badly, but it felt wrong to capture that moment.  Instead, I just stood in his doorway bathed in the warm sunlight with tears streaming down my face.  I felt like the cross was God's way of telling me to stop and rest for a moment and know that He was at work.  That I didn't have to carry the burden of worrying about our unborn son alone.  I've looked for that cross on the floor many times since that day, but I haven't seen it again.  It's okay; I know God is in there anyway.  It doesn't keep me from looking though.  ;)

Sunday was another day when I felt like God was speaking to me.  You see, I went to church on Sunday feeling very anxious about things.  It was our last day of service for several weeks because we're going to be leaving for Philadelphia and Will's hospital visit this weekend.  This week's sermon was all about the epiphany.  While I sat there in the pew instead of listening intently I found my mind swirling.  I was worried about Will and I was thinking about a dear friend's photography project (yep, Julia...I was still oogling over your #wade365 project).  On Saturday evening, I had mentioned to her how much I loved her project, and while I sat in church, I was thinking about whether it was silly to start a 365 day photography project as late as January 6.  Then, I had my first epiphany...make it a 52 week project instead. :) Yes, yes, I realize this is soooo not a big leap and you're now thinking I'm really, really off subject and maybe a tad wonky.  Let me shorten my story.  No sooner than I started thinking about this whole photography project did the pastor start talking about photography, too. It was like hellloooo out there, Mary, I know you're not listening and I would really, really like you to listen to me right now!!  So, like the old corporate professional I used to be, I grabbed a pen and paper and started scribbling...here are some of the words I wrote.  I listen better when I write.  Anyone else like this?

Anyway, the short version of this long winded story about the sermon is that I decided to do a 52 week photography project all about finding an epiphany.  You still think I'm off topic?  Maybe it will make more sense when I actually share my first picture.  The big point here is that I'm going to be looking for a small moment each week that may seem trivial on the surface, BUT when you stop....and really pay attention....you find God hard at work.

SOOO, welcome to my new blog project.  I'm hoping to share my first of 52 stories tomorrow (it's actually probably going to be Wednesday or Thursday...Will has his sleep study today and I'm resting up!).  :)  Anyone else interested in playing along on this project?  I would love to see what you come up with, too.